I'm Graduating? What?

Yeah, I'm graduating in June. Graduating college. Going off into the real world. 

Many of my recent posts on here have been me freaking out about life after college, which is a valid fear because that life for new grads is full of the unknown. But it's mostly filled with unwanted babysitting jobs and living at your parent's house until you decide to get a higher degree in your chosen field. 

For me, this fate has been fast approaching. It's April now, and I graduate in one.. two... two months, not even. Wow that's terrifying. What's more terrifying is that everyone seems to have a plan.

What's my plan...? 

Well, my plan is procrastinating from making a plan. I had a plan - graduate school for clinical psychology. That plan got quickly crushed by realists who informed me that it is near impossible for a newly graduated undergrad student to get accepted into a PhD program in clinical psychology. Ok.

So, I played around with ideas about being a counselor of some sort and applying to a master's program. No, my brain wouldn't accept that. It wanted to go all the way - PhD. Thanks brain, for setting such an unrealistic goal for myself.

Whatever, so I've settled on taking a year off (let's see where this leads...) and hopefully I'll get involved in stuff that will boost my resume. Other than that, I've got nothing. I hope to find some sort of a job, probably babysitting, to make some money because grad school is expensive and maybe focus on the more artistic side of myself for a change. Grad school applications are due December 1st, so I got a full seven months to do this. Oh, why does that feel like it's not enough!?

Because it's not. 

Maybe I'll just become a writer and see where that takes me...