Hectic

I thought during the summer I'd have so much time to myself to write posts, read books and just relax all the time but I was very wrong. This being my last year of college, summer has been full of things to do and opportunities to take advantage of. I got an internship which I started a couple weeks ago and I had a few babysitting jobs here and there. I also got offered a job at DSW, which is a shoe store, that I've been applying to on and off for a few years. These are very exciting events, just stressful and time consuming. So, I haven't had much time to myself, especially during these past few weeks.

My last first day of college starts September 11th and I'm excited and nervous at the same time. It will be my last year and I have piled up a bunch of stuff in my schedule. I am going to be a peer advisor in the psychology department and I accepted the Secretary position in the little peer advisor group, so that just more responsibilities. It should be exciting though and I feel like the fact that I'm going outside of my comfort zone is a good thing. I've always kept to myself and haven't really been very active in school club-wise or social-wise, so this should be good for me, not to mention it'll help make me look good on my resume (:

On another note, I am counting down the days until Fall starts... summer is kicking my butt. It is insanely hot and humid here, so the second those leaves start falling off the trees I will jump for joy and put on my favorite leggings and sweater and make myself the biggest and best cup of tea ever. I have a bunch of things planned for the Fall and I hope to actually get things done, like go to a corn maze and go pumpkin picking, things like that. Ryan and I are going to two Bears games this year, so far, so that should be exciting... hopefully they actually win. But again, I'm hoping the weather will be a bit more friendly. I can't wait until I get to wear my boots again.

There's a lot happening in my life now, so updates will be imminent. (:

I just wish I could get a few minutes of me time.. time to breathe. I am trying to slowly come back to my spirituality, but it's really hard when there's no time for it. I am attempting to learn to meditate, so we'll see how that goes. I guess meditation is good for stress and heart health, and those are definitely things I need to fix.. Also, working out is something I just can't figure out how to fit into my schedule... or eating right. I'm kinda just focused on school and work at the moment... and ugh, school hasn't even started yet. Maybe, when it does I'll be able to find some sort of balance between everything.

I've been watching Teen Mom 3 on MTV lately and I cannot figure out how those poor girls are keeping it together.. I don't have a child, and I can't imagine how hard life would be when you have to take care of another human being who is so helpless and dependent on you. I babysit, but that's nothing like having a child of your own and those 16-18 year old girls are doing it almost all on their own. I feel bad for them but I guess you get what you ask for, they decided to take risks of sorts and had to accept the consequences, it's just too bad those consequences are so life changing. Especially when they still have school and work to attend to, it just blows my mind how young mothers or even single mothers do it all while keeping a sense of sanity still. I think every mother deserves a medal or something...

But anyway, life is hard, blah blah blah.. hopefully mine will become less hectic, or at least a bit more manageable soon.