Flowers

When I was younger I hated flowers. I hated them because they were too girly and then later I hated them because every girl always got flowers from her boyfriend, and I didn't want to be every girl. For the past few years, however, I've taken a specific liking to flowers. I have floral blankets, floral bed covers, floral pillows, floral notebooks, floral backgrounds on my laptop or websites. I even have floral pajamas... I am crazy about flowers. Why you ask? Well, I finally appreciate the beauty of nature and how miraculous and beautiful flowers really are.

I have, throughout the years, kept dried out flowers, only because people who meant something to me gave them to me and since I'm so sentimental... I couldn't throw them out. Now, I'm stuck with bouquets and bouquets of dried out roses of every color, it almost looks like someone died in my room (so says my mom). I like them though, I can't keep a flower alive for the life of me, so I just let them die and look pretty in my room. I like alive ones too, especially in pictures. I like drawing flowers, even though my art is at a standstill at the moment because of school. I drew this in one of my art classes in high school and I still think of it as my best work of art:

Flowers have become one of my favorite things, I think they always have... I just didn't realize it until I got over my I-hate-flowers-and-girly-things phase. My favorite flowers are white roses and poppy flowers. 

            

White roses because I like white and think they look breathtaking and poppy flowers because my mom always talked about them and how they're all over Poland. They also symbolize dreams and death, so go figure. They're also in a lot of my writing, so that's one way to recognize something written by me.

What's funny about the picture above and the placement of it is that they're the colors of the Polish flag, the way my subconscious works is comical.

My goal is to draw more flowers, some realistic and some a bit more surrealistic like the ones in my picture. I can't wait until Spring (real Spring, not this crappy Chicago weather) to go to the Botanical Garden and take pictures of all the beautiful flowers, maybe sketch some, too. I love looking at all the nature in there, they display it so wonderfully, except I hate the bees.. they scare me. 

I wish to one day have an intricate flower garden when I have a place of my own. A little place with a white wire chair and table for tea and book reading. And there will be a butterfly feeder and tons of bird houses and bird feeders, so it'll be a colorful garden for sure. I guess I should probably start learning how to actually care for and grow flowers so they don't die like everything else in my room.

That is why I love flowers! Ryan thinks I'm crazy because I wear things with flowers on them and it makes me look older, but I don't care (: